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|Tuesday, December 25th, 2001|
|christmas not so good, but hey, at least its not mile marker...
so anyways, sunday i had to go to the hospital cuz i had a pain
in my right forearm for about six hours straight befor i decided to go do something about it. some and my pops spend about four hours at the hospital waiting to find out whether or not i had fractured my radius or ulna, which was what i was hoping had happened. so the doc comes back and tells me that nothing was wrong with me bones, rather that i'm developing carpal tunnel syndrome. exactly what i didnt want to hear. so here i am now, christmas morning, annoyed ny this pain in my arm, and not wanting to do anything but get drunk. grr......
You don't really care about anything or anyone, except for your Game Slave.
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If I were a Dead Russian Composer, I would be Sergei Rakhmaninov.
I lived in the early Twentieth Century and was well known for my compositional, conducting, and piano skills, yet I am melancholy despite this talent. My famous works include my nearly-impossible piano concerti.
Who would you be? Dead Russian Composer Personality Test
|Saturday, December 1st, 2001|
|all my doors are open and i only see empty rooms...
its a pitty that all theses things have to happen at a time like this. the cusp of it all. i'm caught between the feelings i used to have and the realization that a wait in vain was too horrible to endure. i was told that i might have a chance if this one thing wouldnt happen. welll, guess what, it happened too late. my chance has arisen but i had decide to abondon that glimmer of hope. a mere shadow of those feelings i had brewing lie within my heart aand they want to take me over again. i could just go ahead and go for it. try and fullfill my desire for marylyn. i could take her away from all of this, if only for a bit. i just don't know though. i want to, but would i betray my conviction?
i worry sometimes that i'm not doing enough to better my situation. it comes down to the choices that i make in life, and recently they seem to be the wrong ones. my scholastic career is in shambles and on the brink of collapsing. i worry for my dearest of friends. i hope that his problems can be resolved without too much pain. if there were anything i could do to help himi would, but from what i can see i'm not one of those that can. my family is startingto resent my existence. apparently i;m not contributing like they believe i should. i'm lost. i knwo that if i found a love my situation would better. it would give me a beam of hope. something to distract me from all the pain and suffering i see around me. i don't want to give up. i want to persever, but i'm at a loss. i don't know if i have got the mettle to do it. i think she would make me happy. something i haven't been in such a long time. i only hope that she would liek me enough to reciprocate. i hope that i have the ability to bring joy into the life of another. i've lived like this long enough and i've made the decision to make achange. something has to be done and if i dont instigate it i don't know who will Current Mood: at a loss
|Sunday, November 25th, 2001|
i've decided to take my place once more. i live now, i see my errors for what they were. do you have something you want to confess?
|Tuesday, August 7th, 2001|
i want a boyfriend.
its pitiful to think that a few weeks a go, i declared my independence from relationships. i stated that i didnt need them and would do fine without one. but here i am now. lonely, as far as love goes. geez, i must sound like some blubbering idiot about now. cartons will help me out now. everything i ever needed to learn came from cartonns. yes, thats the ticket. cartons... Current Mood: bouncy
|Monday, August 6th, 2001|
do you think i can have some time to myself in order to kil the little people residing within my head? Current Mood: anxious